Sabía que te amaba antes de conocerte...
Y no me malinterpreten...
Cuantos en verdad lo han sabido?
Suena a cuento de hada esto del amor a primera vista porque... lo es.
Nadie te va a amar de primas a primeras a menos que... de verdad te amen...
Nadie te va a amar a menos que... haya un beneficio para ellos... triste y obscura verdad... Todos esperan que los ames a cambio de... amor... sexo... interes... triste... en verdad... :(... pero... eres  parte de esta consumista sociedad en donde si no vales comercialmente algo pues... no vales nada...

To live our love story...

Easier than just listening to a salsa song...
Can we just fly away from social rules? Can we just fly away from everyone who is against us? Can we just fly away as free doves against the wind? Can we just live our love story? and love each other until we run outta breath? Can we just dream awake about a world without races, colors or regrets?
No.
we cannot.
But we can try... We can fight for it...
It will not be easy... It will be frustrating and painful.
But... Can you think about a better love story than this? Something better than two different people who met in the worst circumstances and yet... they decided to give themselves a chance?
Not a Romeo and a Juliet... Just a couple  from different races and parts of the world who decided to fight for a chance to be happy... Against all odds... Just fighting for what they believed in... and then... everything became possible... everything!!!

Outside myself...

How many times have we wanted to just... be someone else or somewhere else?
And we cannot... Unless we are declared insane... and even then... we will have to think about the consequences... it actually sucks ass...
Because we have laces tieing us to this material world.
We have family...
We have steps following us outside ourselves...
 I wish this was way easier than just walking away.}

Without love you cannot make yourself happy...

So... here I am again... writing about another song... but the truth is  I believe music is the universal language as it will always convey feelings and this time... its about an argentino group called La Ley... The law...

and they say... without pain you cannot make yourself happy... without love... please do not suffer anymore...
and I got to see... Just the one who has loved for real knows what pain is... Just the one who is willing to sacrifice everything for their loved ones knows how to love for real means... and if you are not willing to sacrifice everything you have... then... What you feel  is one of these ones.
1. If you like the way they look... It is lust.
2,  If it is the way they look like and the way they are when around you... they like you...but...
3.  If it is they way they look, the way they treat you and the way they are when around you...
you are screwed... YOU ARE IN LOVE!!!
and then... Do not suffer anymore... Because without pain you cannot make yourself happy... and without love... you cannot suffer any more...

The favor from Loneliness

I heard a song today not so long ago... I am a fan of music so I am always listening to it. I truly believe there is a song for every state you are in, for every situation. So Im a fan of Youtube and their music videos (even the silly ones made by fans dedicated to that special person) and I found this one called The favor from loneliness. In a few words it is about a person asking loneliness to take their loved one to a room and make them feel it.  To make them realize they feel lonely because they do not have the one they love with them.  To make them realize love is a true and unique gift you do not get in every corner... and I thought wow!! This talented songwriter has actually loved for real! Because you do not really know what to be lonely is until you love for real.  And... not until you realize you love them but you are not loved back... And this is not applied just to a romantic partner or something like that as sometimes, you have family you deeply love but you are not loved back the way you should...
Yes it is my case. I want this person to miss me and realize how much I love her. I want her to see how much wrong she has done to me and see that if she came to me with true intentions I would forgive... I want her to see that I am willing to put everything in the past as long as she demonstrates she truly loves me but... I know this will never happen... Sometimes envy is way too powerful to let people see through... Sometimes The Lord sends you not the people you want but the people you need to become the person you need to be.

a mother and a daughter who drifted apart... or a son and a father... siblings... or a couple who broke up... It does not matter, it hurts. It hurts to love and not being loved back. It hurts to be away when you thought you were gonna be together or stay close the rest of your lives.  It hurts to know you would do everything for them but they would not for you... or they would even hurt you or the ones you love if they could... So after I heard this song I started to feel a little better... Because I got to understand true love is about giving and I gave... I did not get what I should have gotten but... I did my part. And that should be enough for me.

Living with an American

Living with an American

Well… I decided to write this time about how it is for me ( a Guatemalan teacher) to live with a gringo. I guess its because a lot of my friends have asked me the same question, and every time they do this they have this look in their eyes as if we were going to discuss one of the most intriguing and forbidden topics of the era.  Although it seems silly to me ( as living with a gringo is no different from living with a European or Chinese if you ask me, after all, a person is a person) for some people here in my country it is a serious issue, as they honestly think the Imperialists are here to invade and conquer us one more time!!

Anyways, it’s wonderful.  And it does not have to do with the fact he is from the United States, It is because of the way he is. He is polite, tolerant, sharing, giving, caring… He likes long walks and talks. He´s very observant and attentive, not just with me but with our kids.  A family guy. And this has nothing to do with where he is from but with the values he was raised with. Once I read that a man who treats his wife as a princess has been raised by a queen. I know now this it totally accurate. My mother in law has done such a wonderful job raising this man that my life will never be long enough for me to thank her for that. Now I hope I can do the same for my future daughters in law. Raise men who cherish and respect their wives, who see in them as partners and not as a responsibility or a nice, good looking girl to show off.  Men who value family more than money, nice vacations or material stuff.

He is not perfect though.  But nobody is after all… And yes! We do have arguments, but we talk through them and solve problems as a couple should do…  And even when we are having one of those moments in which we are truly mad we still talk to each other and say I love you. Because it is the situation, not the person, what got us upset in the first place.

Sometimes we get the dirty looks while walking together … Sometimes it’s a look for me… Usually another girl or woman like saying how can a woman like her be with such a handsome guy?.. sometimes it is him… usually an old person like saying… what is this invader doing here and with one of our women?  We look past that and keep walking. Some people are nice to us, some of them are rude… Like that bus driver who did not want to finish his bus route just because he did not like us together in his bus.  Anyways, every time this happens we hold hands, we keep walking and standing tall… Because there will be always someone who does not like to see us together, someone who will criticize… someone who will try hard to break us apart for whatever reason.

In a few words I can say: It is wonderful to live with him, not because he is from the States but because of the great man he is!!!And that my friends sums it all up!!

So... got a new job... been feeling right... excepting this VISA immigration process... I mean... I am all in favor of people trying to get to the states in the legal way!! I actually encourage them!!! but... Im annoyed by the ones who came here ILLEGALLY and are trying to stay... Lets be fair... maybe a ton of them did not have a choice ( their parents brought them here without their consent) but... it is not fair anyways...
Illegal Immigration IS a problem... an issue... and its not about the person... it is about the situation... and yet... I tell my friends... Try to put yourself in the shoes of the other one... Some of us are denied the chance to live in the states just because we have to meet certain requirements (money wise)...
You see... people tend to label... in the states or here... they do it... I have seen this soo many times that is not even funny but... there is hope...
Just because you were deported it does not mean you are a dangerous delinquent... Just because you were sent  here with your parents it does not mean you came here looking for an opportunity...
Just because you married a gringo it does not mean you are a slut...
So... here we are... looking for a chance to prove the Government of the United States of America we are law abiding people who... want to have a chance to become citizens because... for us.. latino people... Citizenship and Honor are a part of the same thing... pride!!! :D

So... Here I am... la mujer del gringo... the wife of the american... thats how I am labeled here... It does not matter... I do not care really... Just that I am here by myself and... not because my hubby wants me to but... because we need to... He needs to work while I am here to prove he can support us once we get there... Isnt that stupid? I mean... we do know we HAVE to provide for all our kids and yet... we need to prove our intentions?? anyways... nevermind...
I got a new job at a call center... they said I have a soothing voice... LOL... I do hope it is true cause I need the job!!! so next time you call your credit card company do not forget... you may be talking to a middle age mother who is just trying to get by and... make your life easier everytime you find a problem like your CC credit balance!!!!